countingfaces

2009-06-20T06:41:00.000-07:00

dear diary,

recently i have been rather pissed with my new internet connection, some mio thing. alright, i am not exactly an expert here. but. can anyone just tell me what on earth is wrong with mio?? the internet connection is snail's pace man. seriously, in these days, no one can possibly live--be alive--with such a slow internet connection.

enough of rantings.

i remembered telling you people that i am oh so in love with online shopping. perhaps i am super crazy about it till the fact that i do have the intention of opening a blogshop too. hmm. i guess that's seem to be a really great idea, besides the fact that i do not have the capital, i am having THE exam...A levels this year, i am inexperienced and close to a computer idiot. anyways, i am super excited and doubly passionate about opening this blogshop. in any case should i succeed. well. better not think about failing before this project even starts right? i will be rich!!! this is one of the greatest incentives available and motivation there is. but the bigger reason why i feel like investing in this blogshop is that it is going to be soooo exciting!!! be glad for me this once will you. smile!

i know that it is tough and i may have a hard time managing it. but who knows what the future holds? i am soo going to give it a try:)

wish me well.

ta-da,
countingfaces

2009-06-07T08:44:00.000-07:00

*counting faces*

dear diary,

recently, i have been hooked up on online shopping. oh, i really think the internet is possibly one of the greatest tool ever invented. okay, i mean space. cyber space. it is the best medium for everything, ranging from communication to business. online shopping really gives me the best of the both worlds. to satisfy my crave for shopping..it's the Great Singapore Sales people..and at the same time..at the comfort of my own home. however, it does have it's negatives. everything has. it's a risk you'll probably have to take. to believe in the other party. it is a matter of trust now. can you just believe the different facets that this little online shopping entangles. just the problems alone makes it not so much a small deal but more of something that encompasses deeper thoughts and wisdom.

so you will not get cheated i mean.

alright. enough of the sophistication. and the prelude. i wanted to talk about scams. really.

a lady, who claimed to be an employee of the Atlantis group, rang me a few months back and told me i won a prize. unbelievable as it is because i have never joined any of the lucky draw thing they were talking about. well, she asked me to watch the charity show..following which was the lucky draw on some weird channel(i didn't have cable). but the thing is, even if i do own cable, i won't be able to watch it because it clashed with family day! and i am not going to give up family day for anything. we all have been working hard for this carnival and it is definitely not going to be sacrificed for something which seems more likely a scam. oh she sounded so real. i swear. i almost got scammed.

she blamed me for not believing her as it was my fault not to watch the show. thus, i have my doubts. alright. it is my fault. she blamed me for not going to hongkong to collect it. okay, my fault again. she blamed me for not believing her. how could i? i am not senile or deranged..i did not watch the show...explaining my doubts and all. she blamed me for not choosing the alternative. which by the way was to pay 2% of the prize money for their welfare..part of the country's law. believe me. the technicalities bore. they do. hello?? it was about $2000 plus and i am not giving my money away just like that. everything she said had loopholes. even if it was true. how can the company do things in such unprofessional way. note the strong word: unprofessional. they are ATLANTIS.. not supposed to. when they own the hotel in dubai that costs billions of dollars??

alright...i admit i wanted it to be real. but let's face the reality..i can't get it even if i wanted to! i can't spare to go to hongkong. i can't spare to transfer 2000 bucks into the account. sigh.

but the morally wrong thing that she shouldn't do was to threaten me that she would jump off the building to prove that she's right. i did not want her to do that. she was becoming irrational and she was scaring me. i thought that it was my money? why is she so agitated? that, i couldn't understand. now i am still figuring that out. it's baffling. isn't it?

sometimes, certains scams do pass off as real. OMG. they are really hard to differentiate. they play on human's vulnerabilities..greed i guess. better be wiser next time. do not even give a chance.

seriously.

widely wake,
counting faces

2009-06-04T11:05:00.000-07:00

*counting faces*

dear diary,

i really cannot explain how i feel these days. seriously, it's sweet sour and bitter.

there are things which i really cannot fathom and comprehend. alright, it means i don't understand. but the thing is, they are all too sudden. probably, the only way to describe it is as if someone dropped a huge bomb in my life, dug a huge hole for me to fall into, shot me with a rifle so i hurt so bad, heavily wounded with millions of holes and scars on me. these issues eat my heart out and gradually left me very hollow. all because i cannot understand. i can't or refuse. this i cannot differentiate.

that is the bitter part.

Sour.
it is sour because i feel the power of deviousness around me. being taken advantaged of. well, the biggest problem is it's not about me at all. it's largely about my dears... i really can't save them. it is difficult to stand around watching not doing anything. sl, we can try battling out with the character, but all is lost. you must know we will lose..we are at the losing end. we are not favoured. the conditions do not allow at all. is probably 9 years longer or a few months longer? really come on...it's reality. (see, this is the rational part of me which i refuse to acknowledge). i dream of a close-knit circle. i'm dreaming. is it because i already knew i had to let go, but i am still i self-denial. possible.

that's why it is so sour.

Sweet.
i feel extremely eloquent when it comes to this part. my week has simply been fantastic with me going for sleepovers, adventures, outings, more outings, luncheons, meetings with my beloved juniors..my dearest ones persay, my best friend.
sleepovers. i am serious i had not had such a tiring one. really, who excersises that much? my classmates. *laughs heartily* actually it was superb! i felt revived after that. and our night expedition in a weak attempt to frighten the guts out of our another poor classmate. this obviously failed miserably. but as you can see...we had a night expedition..means adventure..means lots of walking..means working out. you are right. exercising. *laughs* they totally excavated my deeply buried burning desire to lead a heathly lifestyle. wait..don't steer. you are right again. a healthy lifestyle.
outings. i love outings. had a really interesting one. my trip to thrift stores with sleepover friends. to tell you the truth, we were extremely disappointed with them. or rather with it, we went to the one on waterloo street but it was seriously miserable. there was something cheap about the air. well, it's not the problem.. it's the quality and designs of the hand-me-downs. disgusting they were. you can't find a thing. poorly organised and dusty. musty. we took pictures instead. although it was very tiring and we were cheated by the "everything is fantastic" megazines, we did enjoy ourselves and called it a day with lots of pictures taking and short shopping experiences at er....bugis street and bugis junction.*smiles*
now at least we know the real and ugly truth about thrift stores.
meeting with effygirl.
i love all my meetups with her. she gives very good advice. that's for one. the other reason being we are super close to one another. very chummy. we went really way back. but our most vivid memories still sort of stopped at the sec 3 cultural exchange trip to china. we were roommates for 11 days. that really added a plus point to our friendship. another layer of coating. i can tell her anything under the sun and she's really a good listener. always making my day at the end with her wise words, all very sardonic. how ironic is that. dramatic.
meetings with kay.
kay is also a very close friend of mine. a close friend of all of us in the clique. laughs. i'd really prefer to call them groups if i am allowed to. kay also gives excellent advice. we can really talk alot too. she is very concerned about my studies. so i shall be studious. okay. more studious so as to not disappoint her. laughs again. wait. i shall be serious. shouout: it is time to buck up! pull up your socks!
outings with my beloved juniors. beloved. they really are the GREATEST juniors you can ever possibly have. they are my dearest. love them love them love them. they are all sweet and always there for you. i remembered that i was very nervous and discouraged and demoralised towards SYF and they encouraged me a lot. they comforted. and some of my dears even gave me a card. see the irony? but the things is, they are lovely people. enough of the never ending praises i am singing. NO. i shall not stop! i went cycling yesterday. without knowing how to cycle. so the only choice besides learning is tandem. ahem. yes tandem. and being like super heavy...okay people..i realise the need to lose weight...it's not just some casual comment already. my skinniest junior tandemed me. he is really damn skinny. i knew it would break his bones but he kept reassuring me that it is alright. how sweet is that? told you my juniors were the best. the rest kept saying you can do it. can you imagine being in an environment with all smiles, all encouragement and even the air reeks of love! we are the xyz family indeed.
luncheons. oh yay. truthfully, me and my classmates have luncheons almost every other day. we all enjoy food and share our love for food. favourite hangout, either pizzahut and kfc. the juicy part is..these people are actually going for 30 hour famine camp. i really can't imagine how they will possibly survive these torturous minutes and hours. all i can say is good luck my girls! you guys love food like mad, so it really is big decision to join this. i mean, come on, pay $30 dollars to starve yourself which is why my classmates are all soo cute and sweet. it's for a good cause what. that's what they'll say. you don't see that kind people around. laughs. hey! i am not pointing to myself.
just received an sms. my darling is worried she will be very very very hungry!
my cousins.
my closest cousin is flying to gold coast. without me. i am so stuck here in singapore, preparing for my exams. however, i shall look on the brighter side of life and see it as a chance for me to buck up on my studies. hope she will really enjoy the sun, the sand, the sea. wonderful!
my best friend.
recently i chatted with her for a while. it was really a while because she had to prepare for her h3 examinations. it was really lovely talking to her. we are soulmates. we don't really talk much. ahem. i understand the confusion here. i am talkative, blabbling nonsense all day long. but yes, we do not talk as much. all that is left unsaid is perfectly understood. recently her gram passed away. i really felt very sorry for her. i send my condolences. i am seriously upset about this. should be classified under bitter.

above is my bitter. sour. and sweet life. i guess it is always like that. there are people to leave you mid-hanging and people who will make your day. i am very grateful to those who made my day.

love,
counting faces

2009-05-22T07:47:00.001-07:00

*counting faces*

continuing yesterday's headlines: the-very-smart-chem-teacher blews his top and went hysterical

i mean seriously, how many teachers you see speak in a possibly deranged and incoherent way. he commits so many fallacies. an absolutely impossible guy. i really want to speak good of him but it is really not happening...he seems to constantly place himself in a difficult position where most would just regard him as a monster and HATE him, disregarding his efforts at the same time. i mean..it is just in the package--everyone sensors out your good and highlights your bad.

it just happens. with his shockingly low EQ. his just suffers at the end of the day. sometimes i feel like strangling him because he would have been respected and well-liked for his hardworking nature if he had not portrayed himself as the insensitive freak.

hai...the long and short about the chemistry remedial....

the very smart chem teacher: (to me and chem consultation friend) whoa..you two are the ULTIMATE. one five marks and one eight marks. one get one-eighth of the marks. one get one-fifth of the marks. i really don't know how arh.

turning to me.....

the very smart chem teacher: tell me. did you study or not?? entire ionic equilibria question blank! i mean seriously, if you are not interested. please don't waste my time. come for consultation still score this kind of marks.

me: i didn't study. i just studied carbonyl.
i laughed. hohoho. it was very wrong as he seemed really pissed.

the very smart chem teacher: you only studied carbonyl. you think what. class test arh? what is this?

me: common test lor.
hohoho! (i am seriously hopeless--still can laugh after being lectured)

the very smart chem teacher: common test right?? then? carbonyl is only one of the topics. luckily the question is on carbonyl or else you won't even get 8 marks. and you, did you study?

chem consultation friend: yes i studied very hard.
she studied extremely hard and was dead serious about this.

the very smart chem teacher: you always say you studied very hard. but your results don't show! you really got study or not. don't deceive yourself leh. you said you got study but if in actual fact you didn't, you are actually putting yourself at a great disavantage.
see? he is doing himself a great disservice again. he is trying to help. but the approach! please the very smart chem teacher!!!

chem consultation friend: yes i really got study. it's just that i can read lecture notes and understand but when it's the actual, i cannot do.

the very smart chem teacher: still babbling away and being skeptical.... then i don't know how to help you. how you study. i think i should stand beside you during mid-years to see how you do your exams. what the??? ouch. that hurts!!! and the approach!!!!

to me: and you arh...i don't bother about you already. whether you want to study or not it's your problem. you are going to suffer if you don't.
hohoho. i can't believe my attitude.

the very smart chem teacher is seriously unsound at this moment. is mental instability his medical condition? he started scolding random people.
it feels like the case where your anger is at epitome and you need to explode...you'll turn from anger to hysteria. at least that was what happened to my chem teacher.

he stopped the guy and asked us: is he a boy or a girl?
stupid question as it is downright obvious.

being my usual rude self: of course boy lah, so obvious.

chem teacher wents crazy:
boy, you boy or girl?
yah your hair.
when are you going to cut it?
better remember to cut it.

hey people, whatever the boy said didn't really matter. what mattered was what the very smart chem teacher said. did you guys get this?

he is a chem teacher. he is not in the disciplinary committee. he is not in PE deparment who is in charge of all these attire stuff....he is possibly deranged now. perhaps he was too devastated and affected by us.

argh the very smart chem teacher. i really hope you would FOR ONCE use the correct approach!!!! it will immediately aid you in your image!!!! completely.

day 2
apparently i was wrong again. he pasted a post-it in chem consultation friend's file and said she had incomplete work and that she did not mark her work( implying that she got all correct). i rolled my eyes. the very smart chem teacher just had to make things worse. he is devastating the already strickened relationship. yes, he is trying to help. but the approach!

APPROACH
APPROACH
APPROACH

i feel very sorry towards him. and to me, i really hate myself for this...but...i didn't hand in the file today.

all hail,
counting faces

2009-05-21T06:03:00.000-07:00

okay, first i have to highlight various issues. one thing, i am really addicted to blogging, so much that i am going to post an extremely long post today:) so please DO NOT COMPLAIN or even try to be sarcastic on the fact that i like blogging, especially mrs weeseng, who seems to find pleasure in my cbox. yet another huge problem arises...why do people in my life love to IMPERSONATE OTHERS. mrs weeseng, you should have learnt by now. you are not mengyuan. so stop this delusional behaviour. and to sectional leader. huanglaoshi seems incapable of surfing the net or should i say using the computer. remember his little ordeal with the computer? hohoho! challenging indeed!

*counting faces*

OH MY GOD! what a month! now, i finally have the time to sit around and blog about my roller-coaster life. it is interesting, joyous, exhilarating, intriguing, emotional, depressing, discouraging, yet anticipating and hopeful! it is just simply fantastic. my mood is constantly fluctuating with the different events that occured or everything i had encountered in the past month. therefore, it is deserving of its name: my roller-coaster life.

my roller-coaster life begun in mid-april when the intensives for the SYF started. practice! practice! practice! we had yet to condition ourselves to the competition mode. almost everybody played the pieces without any passion. what we had were tired mind body and soul.
we faced the greatest pressure in expectations. in self-expectations, the expectations of the teachers, the school and the alumni. we have to uphold our reputation. this is enough to stress everyone out. it cripples everytime we do not play well. this is the depressing and discouraging part. 'not good enough' seems to be a spirit that haunts and you'll shiver and crumble. at least it does for me. for a few others with a strong heart, the supposedly discouragements in my eyes turn into motivation--a driving force which pushes them further.
really, sometimes, i have to admit that it is true that people react differently to a same situation. i am more pessimistic. sad to say.

these are one of my darkest days, where i am stressed up to the brim that tears flowed uncontrollably. tear duct= tap.

my roller coaster life turns itself 360 degrees. the kind that will make you puke and scream you head off. this is an extremely truthful recount as we really did scream our head off when the results are released.

huang lao shi is right. smile to give your comrades confidence. we are together not alone. it boosts confidence. and it works like magic. huanglaoshi is forever right.

we went up the stage, focused yet enjoying the music that we made..literally the music that we made: "wo men zhi zhuo de yin yue". we are there to showcase our talents and put together our best performance. every beat, every second, is symbolic of all our hard work and effort. i really cannot describe in words the amount of effort we placed as a group. we flowed with the music, we immersed ourselves into the world without words, in a world where music reigns and is the language. we believed deeply in huanglaoshi and stayed calm. nervousness maybe present in some, but we believe the jitters push us to be more careful and more serious in the act. we loved OUR MUSIC. OUR CONFIDENCE. which huanglaoshi calls it "xiao xin de zi xin". careful confidence--the direct translation if you want.

it was really the NEVER FELT BEFORE. the feeling was novel, exhilarating and it devoured us. we were so absorbed. i was sooo proud of everyone.

we really have to thank our teachers, our seniors, huanglaoshi, the exco and one another. hey, i am not diplomatic here, but after a particular incident, i really feel the impact of co being built on such strong foundations, such strong grounds.

mr lim: anderson junior college...rong.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!

needless to explain right?

my roller coaster ride becomes rocky when i faced a confrontation. which i reacted badly as usual and made the situation worse. speechless then.

i realised that my joy seems to be to over-the-top and my excitement seemed offensive to my very very good friend whom i knew worked very hard for her CCA but did not get the desirable results.

i was being insensitive and unthinking. i was deeply affected and went ranting the entire day.
only till dinnertime when i had the chance to calm myself down and reflect did i find myself ridiculously mean and unfeeling. i didn't want the friendship to end.

i apologised.

sometimes, i really feel like slapping myself awake because my character flaws are soo evident.

Another reason to really slap myself

i made another friend angry AGAIN.
imagine. peaceful dinner at kfc turning into a heated argument and swan walks off.
and it's all because of tan. i mean, it's not even us.

but now you see why i really feel like slapping myself sometimes after everything occured.

an excerpt of the should-not-have-been-there conversation.

swan: so you think very good lah, understand tan so well. why you always siding her.

me:no....(right answer) yes.....(wrong answer). yes. not i siding her but she wants the best for us.

swan: so you think you are always right lah?

me, possibly deranged: yes. i am always right.

why do i have to be so adamant and irritating and didactic and rude. perhaps a 'i guess that's me'?-- sounds so irresponsible and unthinking.

stunningly, it is really not about us. as in we are not even the subjects of concern.

i apologised again only to receive hostility. i sent again. no reply.
i was afraid..is our friendship really going to end because of this. it is so not going to suffer.
mon. did not attend school.

IS SHE STILL ANGRY?

i decided to send another sms to settle our disputes. no reply. finally. finally. finally. i received a sms which explicity spelled that she was not mad at me already.

doesn't it call for celebration???
IT is really time for me to change:)

LASTLY IT'S VERY-SMART-CHEM-TEACHER. again. shall dedicate one post to him. he really does seem to have a flair for making others mental and unnerved.

all hail,
counting faces

2009-04-01T06:10:00.000-07:00

OMG. this blogging thing is really addictive! but i like it...oh yeah...

*counting faces*

what the... why everything seems to turn out bad for me? argh. turns out that i didn't study my maths test. turns out my practices for the morning announcement is in vain. yes, you are right. i screwed up and everyone laughed at me. everyone talked about it the minute they saw me. even the funny little caucasian teacher. great! it totally destroyed my DEMURE + SOPHISTICATED image. oh yay! turns out that my dear chem-consultation-friend went berserk today(actually it is a tumult of emotions actually) that she actually rebutted and sort of quarralled with the-very-smart-chem-teacher. i was really speechless then.

what actually happened?

some background information: due to maths test(actually for my friend only...i was well tired..but i blogged anyways..oh wells...), we did not prepare for consultation, resulting in a very grumpy and extremely unhappy teacher. the-very-smart-chem-teacher is most famous for his sarcasm and his love for hurling insults...then again, these insults are actually meant to be amusing...well..they obviously don't quite turn out that way. which attributed to his unpopularity. however, he does have his merits though..which i shall elaborate in future if circumstances allow, as such...

the-very-smart-chem-teacher: okay. so you studied for the maths test is it? let's see then when the results come out.

which totally provoked chem-consultation-friend. guess she really placed in alot of effort preparing for the maths test and was really unprepared for unnecessary insults like this. (*note: the-very-smart-chem-teacher likes to throw sarcastic remarks. it's not very funny actually. but not exactly infuriating?)

chem-consultation friend: er..(raises up her hand a little)..may i say something.

the-very-smart-chem teacher: silence...nods...

chem-consultation-friend: i think it is really unfair for you to imply that we will not do well for the maths test. we really did study. and it's not as if everybody's lousy at everything. and though we may not do well in chem, it doesn't mean we'll not do well for everything. (not really exact words but gist is there. and what's important is that chem-consultation friend actually said that which turned the very-smart-chem-teacher green!)

peeps! hey, it's not actually funny though. you can totally sense the tension man! no kidding. all i could do was to manage a little laugh...not very appropriate..ha! and he turned to me...

me: i was really busy. i didn't study for the maths test though. and i really have nothing to say.

he was totally unconvinced and the atmosphere was akward like hell. of course, at some point he had to start reprimanding us for wasting his time...coming unprepared...and blah. but whoa..you can totally see his vein bursting..now the-very-smart-teacher has turned into the-very-green-teacher. a greenie basically. and as expected, after he finished his piece, he left in a huff! how cliche.

suprisingly, i wasn't mad at him at all. therefore, i kept squeezing a few smiles which entirely annoyed and irritated him. God knows why? i was trying to relief the tension of the immense power struggle between greenie and my chem-consultation-friend. i was being nice ok. or so i thought. perhaps..smiling is not very appropriate then:(

NOTHING SEEMS TO GO WELL. TILL THEN.

hail,
counting faces

2009-03-31T08:56:00.000-07:00

although i do not have the luxury of time but...

this post is dedicated to all my beloved TLDDS friends(actually i only know two well). anyways, tomorrow is their BIG DAY. you've got it right. THEIR BIG DAY!

reason being: it's their SYF tomorrow!!!

i hope that they will be able to clinch the GOLD-WITH-HONOURS award. they have been working extremely hard, slogging to the verge of tears. therefore, they have the very right to attain this highest recognition!

to whiney, i applaud your determination and perseverance. and you know why. it really amazes me how strong people can be in with a common goal in mind. so keep up the faith, live the moment, give your everything, your essence, your heart, your soul. keep bleeding love. to your audience, aka competitors and judges, whom you will ultimately charm. believe in yourself, you will be all that you want.

to aksh, the that-kind-of-thing-girl. liquify your dance. fall in love. set all your differences aside. merge as one. it will definitely be magical. we acknowledge your efforts and perspiration. unlike in sweatshops:) dedicating you with. Jai Ho!

a little read for you aksh:

A sign of blessing
The snow on the quilt
From the Pure Land

by Kobayashi Issa

with love,
caijun

2009-03-31T08:32:00.000-07:00

*counting faces*

sorry peeps! can't post much tonight. i have a maths test. scary. tons of things to memorise. for the test and for the publicity stunt tomorrow(actually a few lines only).

CPR needed.

....and it happens to be during the morning assembly.

CPR not working!

....in front of a wicked large group of people!

ambulance needed immediately.

.... not forgetting, my so short-term memory and nervousness--my innate talents--to begin with with.

pronouced dead on arrival.

i am so going to be punched, stabbed, sniped, struck right in the face if this comes out of my mouth: err... or worse still, nothing comes out of my mouth...i will be left in dead silence. in awkwardness.

really hope that this will not be how i end and how i contributed to my own social suicide.

wish me well.

hail,

counting faces

2009-03-30T07:46:00.000-07:00

*counting faces*

i am totally screwed up today. and i am in a very bad mood. this morning i was supposed to reach school at 6.55. it was extremely inportant as i had to submit the audio cd for our FM25.(a DJ station for our family day) this is a very major part of our publicity stunts and i was repeatedly reminded not to be late. oh wells. you get it. apparently, i was late again...which marks the terrible start of my not so fantastic day...

for one, ah choo slighted me in the morning. and my best reaction?
me: she want a gang fight is it?("ahbeng" characterisitic oozing. so hard to hide!)
friends:????
seriously, i really do have a very "excellent" anger management. yeah. i became the laughing stock for being irrational again. however, if that really happened, i will be expelled even before i have the chance to say the word fight. i guess that's just how the wacky system works.

the-very-smart-chem-teacher questioned me for not doing my work. and i was actually stupid enough to do justice to myself by stating i was lazy. Lazy. that's a very apt description of me basically! i was actually left speechless again when i tried to convince my friends that it was not due to laziness. i failed miserably, terribly. the words lazy, lazy, lazy, lazy, lazy, lazy kept popping in my head. i couldn't escape and succumbed to this persisent word...i was almost drowned by the sheer idea of sloth. i was entrapped and entwined by it! and the most explicit reason why it actually haunts is because i have been religiously idling my life away. i really hate to admit it. but i really am a prisoner of sloth. handcuffed and locked.

(back to FM25)

i really felt apologetic towards puny-fish throughout the day. well, not exactly. but most of it, yes. i am really thankful towards her for forgiving me so easily.

to puny-fish, i toast, i vow

no untrustworthy taxi companies
no latecoming
no irresponsibility in me
no failing memory

food for thought actually! but i'd like to achieve that! but being self-delusional is never my goal in life. so i shall go slow...

hail,
counting faces

counting faces

2009-03-28T12:17:00.001-07:00

kudos to the designer fish_fries. people do leave me speechless, in every way possible, except the romantised way. nevertheless, love this blogskin as it speaks alot...

*counting faces*
i have been extremely absorbed in teenage angst lately. (but hey! i have a valid reason ok. and it is not termed as excuse.) here's the list of things that concurrently occured which left me in rage, displaying my originally hidden and well-camouflaged "ahbeng" character in me. (you are reading correctly, it's ahbeng because i happen to appear more manly and not feminine)

1) The freaking AJ Idol Judge who made me went hysterical! totally, beacause i went so crazy and lost all rationality that i apparently wanted to throw my shoe at him. then again, recalling that i' wearing asics, perhaps i shall forgive him...NO. i went around asking for the most cheapo shoe and did not find that ideal pair of one-dollar shoes. you'll have to admit that he's lucky.

here's a recount of what happened, leading to me and my friend becoming mentally deranged and gaining instant admission to the mental institute(more commonly known as the IMH). seriously. he can't even dance and he gave the stupidest comment ever to the most amazing dancer i have ever met!!!

stupid toh comments: i feel that you are handicapped by the mask you are wearing. i think you can do so much better if the audience is able to see your expressions.

amazing dancer was wearing a mask. it is actually cool alright.

stupid toh is in choir and he happens to be dance illiterate! he gave the comment right after perfectly qualified judge--she is a dancer.

perfectly qualified judge: ...i think that the mask is the best tool for a performer....

stupid toh is completely capable of making him hated by the entire population. so simon cowell, yet so not simon cowell. i know you get me;)

stupid toh is getting dunked very soon and i bet he's liking that too. credits to his name: stupid toh.

hail,
counting faces